Kindergarten. That just seems like such a big word. Let me start with the cliche, “it feels like yesterday that we were bringing him home for the hospital.” Okay, it doesn’t exactly feel like yesterday but it sure doesn’t feel like it was that long ago! Tomorrow is his first day and let me be honest, I’m sad. I’m sad because I am “sending him off.” He is going to be with someone else more throughout the day than with me. That’s huge! I am entrusting my little five-year old boy to someone else to teach and mold him for many hours during the day, everyday. It’s a good thing that we like her and she happens to be a friend of ours . In my state of being irrational, I told Shane just before he left for a work trip today (yes, I am on my own to drop off our first born at kindergarten tomorrow and I’m not okay with that) that I feel like my parenting stops here and someone else takes over. As he tried not to laugh at my ridiculousness, he told me that couldn’t be further from the truth. The truth is that parenting is just going to get sweeter with Gage. He is going to have new questions, new struggles and new adventures that we get to walk through with him. We get to be there when he gets home to “unpack” his day and hear all about what he learned, loved, struggled with and has questions about. It’s going to be a whole new adventure for us and I am trying to get excited and ready for it. That doesn’t exactly change the fact that I haven’t been able to stop crying for the past few days thinking about it, but I know that I am not alone in this. It’s hard to believe, but as much as I love him and have his best interest in mind, God loves him that much more. His plans for Gage are perfect. He loves Gage and is more concerned with Gage’s well-being than I ever will be. If that’s not comforting, then I don’t know what is. Of course, this doesn’t guarantee that it’ll be easy for him or that he won’t struggle, but it does guarantee that I’m not the one in the driver’s seat.
So here’s to a great year, Gager. You make us so proud and we can’t wait to see how much you will grow this year! We love you to pieces. Love, Mom and Dad